The Fanta Sea

I just found out that I know way more about star wars than my boyfriend does…

well my world came to a halt this morning when i was bombarded by a series of text messages from a friend at school saying that our microbiology professor decided to assign homework….on a sunday…..when we haven’t had class since thursday.

Im sorry that its not convenient for you, mr prof, to put the hw up at a reasonable time. LET ME JUST REARRANGE MY LIFE FOR YOUR HOMEWORK THAT ISNT EVEN ON THE SYLLABUS. 

and its not like this is quick and simple homework.

NO. its lengthy and tedious BUSY WORK.

bitch, i have a 4.0. I have an internship. and about 7 other classes. I have all of my other homework done at least a week in advance so I have time to study for LEGITIMATE tests.

I DONT HAVE TIME FOR YA GAMES. 

and seriously, DR,
 when you assign massive amounts of work over the weekend with no notice, email, or assignment on the schedule, DO try and at least use the right version of the word “gram” on your worksheet. They aren’t graham cracker stains…theyre gram stains. you should know that.  

Also, there are 6 I’s in culturing microbes, not 5. DO YOUR OWN HOMEWORK DR! 

So I have been studying the immense amounts of  Anatomy and Physiology that has been dumped on me in the past two weeks ALL MORNING.

My first practical for this semester is in about a week and a half. I know this seems like it gives me a huge amount of time to study, but alas my anxiety has gotten the best of me all ready. On one hand, its good to be prepared, on the other- i hate feeling like this.

Studying to become a veterinary technician has been both the best thing ive ever done in my life, and the worst. I love animals, SO so so much. It is my dream to help them throughout my life. 

I like animals more than people.
I have to keep reminding myself this. This career is worth it.

There are times however, while ive been in school that I just cannot stand myself or other people. Being in school has been the worst for my anxiety, OCD, and depression. As soon as the semester starts these elements of myself go into a rapid downward spiral. I am constantly checking everything, overworking myself, and allowing myself to be stressed when I dont really need to be.

I am over prepared, yet I feel anxious anyway.
I end up fighting with people I care about, and I feel like Im fighting myself. I miss my friends in fredonia so much. I miss my family back home as well. I feel discontent with the place I am in in my life right ow.

Part of this I have to understand is out of my hands- the school program I am in is demanding…often times they ask for so much- too much- out of the people who are in it.
Part of it is my own doing though.

I am hoping that I can get through this semester in one piece, but it is not going to be easy. I think I will just snuggle with my pets for the rest of the day to remind myself that this is a fight i need to take on.

 

thekillgrill:

it started out with a fish how did it end up like this

it was only a fish

it was only a fish

So i havent been posting as often as i usually do…
This is due to the fact that im taking chem, microbio, parsitology, and anatomy and physiology this semester. mind you, these all have labs as well. thats 8 classes. EIGHT CLASSES PEOPLE.

im also finishing my internship.
Which I LOVE. but it is wearing me pretty thin on top of everything else.

anyway, ill do my best to make time for this blog, but alas, the vet-tech-in-training life is a hectic one. 

 i just the most disgusting thing on tv.
apparently, 1000 ways to die thinks it is OKAY to take an unneccessary jab at feminism.
Now i know this show isnt exactly the most intellectual show to begin with…
HOWEVER.

First and foremost, it represented a feminist chopping up a salami with a knife…making all feminists look as though all they do all day is hate on penis.

YES CLEARLY! YOU GOT ME! thats EXACTLY what i do all day.

Next they had a “feminist” (who knows, probably just an actor) sit and discuss feminism in which she described it as “men are the only reason for problems in the world” etc, etc.

Now yes, some radical groups of feminists may act this way…
but feminism is way more than man-hating. 

BUT HOLD ON THERES MORE.

Then they made a scrolling graphic on the screen, over the woman talking that said “blah blah blah”….

come to find out the story was about a woman whose vibrator killed her.
had nothing to do with feminism at all


Come on, spike TV…. that is the only way you can imagine a woman using a vibe? Pretty sure more women than boring ol’ feminists (blah blah blah, right ?? ;]) use vibrators. Probably because of men like the hater’s who created that show do not know how to pleasure a woman anyway. But clearly, its feminists who suck.

fuck off, TV. 

I probably shouldnt be this angry, its just a stupid tv show.
But it still bugs me